Thursday, April 29, 2010


Why is it that when everything is going well... but so well, someone's gotta drop a bomb on you?
I already know my parents fucked my life over but mom decides to tell me today while we were waiting in that fucking huge ass line... 'i dont know what we'll do with you, your dad ruined your life, not mine' e e;
I don't know where her 'positive attitude is. I wish he wouldn't have left. Like, it would have been okay if he would have stayed here but no, he had to step all over his daughter's future because of some stupid whore.
Fuck all of that. I'll give it a go, what can I lose...? All of this will end soon. Things look really complicated but I have my hopes up.

So I'll stop ranting and time to share what I was really supposed to share XD
Another failed piece! That's because I'm trying to draw with no references. He was supposed to be a fire dancer because well... he's a pyro xD but I couldn't make up a dynamic pose... well I did but I couldn't get it on paper. I was watching one of David Guetta's videos and I saw some firedancers and I loved the idea. I thought Ken would be the perfect character for a piece like that. I did change his look a bit. He used to have a braid but I had troubles drawing it. So I'm practicing how to draw flowy braids. His wristbands had long spikes, removed those... hmmm... that's about it.Anatomy needs a lot of work, his legs.. ugh. Well I think his torso is okay but his legs are not normal? lol. I love his shoes though cB proud of those! haha. His pose DOES make him look like he's raving and Mack thought he was before I told him he's 'firedancing' XD yep fail. So at the end I decided to make him a raver. Coloring will be hard because I need the perfect lighting and skin tones fdsfsdfs so as you can see.... it's not working lol
I'm off to bed my head is about to 'splode and I need to pick up our passports tomorrow morning.

bai bai :3

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Lunch Bullshit

So I went with mom to buy some pupusas and tacos and while we waited for our food I told her thaaat.... my grandmother had a dream about my dad, that he was here and wanted mom back or whatever. So I told her about it and I asked her why would he come? I think it's... a waste of time. I don't- WE don't need him. Not... here at least. If he comes back? It'll be worse. He'd be uncomfortable and the tension in the house will be... just.. ugh. MORE stressful. She said she's not a pessimist... Weeeell I was only trying to be realistic and I can't remember why I said to her that she didn't want me to be happy... and then I said that if I get married I'd be happy and wouldn't do the kind of shit she did. S

She.. just laughed. Like wtf, that really hurt. Then she started to mention shit like you don't clean, you don't do this you barely cook you're so lazy, shit I know already.
I'm sure it's not like that. I'm just so stubborn and UUGH I hate this place and I don't find it fair that I do everything. I'm trying to help my grandmother now cuz she can't walk but no one else helps around the house. I at LEAST fix my bed and most of my mess. She thinks I WONT be happy and that I'll end up like her or something. :/
Moms don't do that y' know?
That just rly upset me and I didn't cry when she was around... I waited for her to leave.
So I rant here. Lol

I'll be happy I know that.

Sunday, April 18, 2010


I wish I could do stupid shit with my friends. That's why I miss Robert and the guys. We used to go to the mall and act like retards, which was fun.
I should be filling this blog with art and shit that does make sense. But this is my little private space. Where I can rant and rant and not have anyone tell me that I rant too much.

And it also sucks that I feel left out.


k bai

Saturday, April 17, 2010


I love his smile v////u///v

Monday, April 12, 2010


Was having a bit trouble today. I woke up at 8 to work on my project and all the illustrators I got didnt work :/ so I wasted an entire day.
But a friend of mine called me and told me he had a copy of CS2. He saved my butt xD





Friday, April 9, 2010


So I had the worse break down ever.
Everything's happening. It's finally happening. That was scaring me and I freaked.

Now everything's okay..

Cose che di pensiero non dovrei pensare.
Cose dette con fuori pensare.
Ma quello non sta importunandolo ora. Perchè non posso avergli una conversazione con? Devo essere così scopare logico? Meno impressionabile? Ha potuto essere la gelosia. Sono giusto non gradendolo. Facile parlare di? Desidero confortarlo, non lei… Ho una sensibilità difettosa, ma non è lui… è circa lei.

Friday, April 2, 2010


I'm staying over Diana's till tomorrow. I don't wanna be home >. o
Nother gewd thing, I talked with Carlos last night <3 which was awesome as always :3
he always makes my day. duuur

Anyway hee~ We worked on her homework. This huge building thing she's designing fffff
Architecture's hard D: I couldn't handle so much stress... I think I'd be bald by now. XDD Plus I hate drafting fffffff I should scan some of the stuff I had to draw for drawing class. I hated that period cuz it was AAAALLL drafting. Then the 2nd one was pastels and still life <3 it was awesome and 3rd one was manga, pretty neat.
I'm hoping to post my art here so I can share it with everyone derpderp cuz dA is stupid.