My eyes hurt.

I cried myself to sleep last night...
I didn't mean t say those things to him. AAAARG I need to fucking calm down and....
really... think about the things that make me happy.. the good things..

I know that as long as I'm here I won't ever have a permanent smile on my face.
I said I envied my friends families > < but that was out of frustration...
fdjfs im not that kind of person D| I don't need to envy anyone cuz i'm happy with the things I have... like my dog my health and love. I wouldn't change that for the world..

sigh*

he's my life too...