Birthday?

I have a feeling I wont have a good birthday.
My friend's schedule ruined plans...
sigh..
and not having the person you love the most makes it worse...

sighs...

God I wonder If you listen to me when I talk to you...
I know You do but like... why are the answers to my questions so hard to find?
Que debo hacer... porque soy asi, porque estoy pasando por esto... los obstaculos que la vida me ha puesto son demasiado dificiles... pero nada es imposible aunque lo parezca. Me desespero.

Me siento agotada emocionalmente. A veces pienso que si lo que me hace feliz durará para siempre... Tu ya sabes que es. Te pido que nada se interponga entre nosotros. No quieiera salir herida otra vez..
que todo salga bien.

Te pido que cuides a lo que me queda de familia. Que le des salud a mi mama... no quiero que se vuelva a enfermar. A mi abuela que se calme xD y que mi hermano madure. Y a mi papa, ayudale un poco, si?
Keep everyone I love safe. If they hurt... help them through it. Please.

Tu sabes que no soy una mala persona. Todo lo que esta pasando, tiene su motivo. Bueno o malo. Nada mejora.. las cosas empeoran.
I wish I had answers to everything... only You know them.

Also... please let us publish our book D': PREASE. Liek soon? I'LL PRAY EVERY NIGHT XD


Help me...

i rly dont care if no one reads these...


fuck this.

last blog.

83

NEW LAYOUT.


Also,YES, BIG GRIN ON MAH FAYSE.


TEEHEE~

My eyes hurt.

I cried myself to sleep last night...
I didn't mean t say those things to him. AAAARG I need to fucking calm down and....
really... think about the things that make me happy.. the good things..

I know that as long as I'm here I won't ever have a permanent smile on my face.
I said I envied my friends families > < but that was out of frustration...
fdjfs im not that kind of person D| I don't need to envy anyone cuz i'm happy with the things I have... like my dog my health and love. I wouldn't change that for the world..

sigh*

he's my life too...

ugh

im seriously sick and tired of my family... specially my grandmother calling me useless and worthless...
she dared to say no one would take me in when I told her I'm moving out soon...
i feel so much anger... she really hurts me. every single day. I'm emotionally scarred because of them. I am not what they want me to be and that irks them.
They care more about my brother than me, I just proved that.

I wont rush things though because all I will do is fuck things up but I HATE it here, I don't have a family.

I know i cause trouble, but only because I try to stand up for myself.
She doesn't see her defects, which are FAR worse than mine. She should shut the fuck up and leave me alone and RESPECT my life.
I disrespect her here and there but it slips because she disrespects me. That's how I am and she should deal with it.

Fuck. Like she'll ever...

Dx

When will this be over...


why is this taking so long! D'x